Healers need healing too... this is no secret! Me for example, I'm VERY opinionated.  My belief around the judgments that come up for me is how far I have come in some areas, despite having so much farther to go.  It's a journey and a process and at least I recognize my short-comings <-- see, potential judgment!  The automatic implication here is that others don't see themselves or the areas in their life that could be improved upon and while I realize this just isn't true nor is it actually what I am saying when I speak of myself and my journey in that statement, but if I'm not careful about how I speak about me and my journey, it can become an outward projection that is not intended. Unfortunately, there is some truth in that belief.  I do hold the belief that others may not be aware of the work they still need to do. I mean, you don't know what you don't know until you know it, right? As a sacred medicine carrier, I pride myself on doing my absolute best daily to be in alignment and integrity with my work.  When I recognize that I am out of alignment, I postpone and cancel ceremonies.  After all, I'm only human and real life happens to us all.  I've gone so far as to put myself in financial crisis ensuring the integrity of the medicine I carry is handled with the utmost care and to prevent harm to those coming to me seeking healing.  Energy transfer is real and it is my responsibility to not pass off anything negative and so, when it is time for me to do my work, I humbly do so without pay. The sad part of all this, and here comes my judgment again, is that I project this personal expectation and boundary on to other healers, especially those who put themselves in a position to mentor others. I would not want to go and pick up someone's problems if I'm trusting them with my soul, so why would I do that to others? And why are others doing that to people who trust them with their innermost secrets? I hold my medicines in high regard and I treat them like an esteemed friend and partner.  When I share them with others, it is from my heart and if I am not in my heart and if I am operating at less than 100% in my own personal life, no mask or smile I put on can hide what I am truly feeling deep inside.  It will show in the service I provide and can impact those who come to me in a potentially detrimental way and that is not why I am in service.  I took a vow to help others, not hurt them and when I see others carrying medicine in a way that does not reflect integrity and genuine care for the work they do and the people who seek them, I am deeply triggered and my judgments take hold. I'm not perfect, by far.  I have a long journey ahead of me in this experience we call life. I've faltered and wavered and made mistakes along this path. I've suffered, I've grown. I survived a few dark nights of the soul. I've had people steal my work and gaslight me when I called them out.  I've been to war only to make peace.  I have lost friends and gained family. Despite the insurmountable work I have done and how far I have come, I recognize that this is a never ending journey that is exposed in layers. Medicine work is my main source of income and yet, I will NEVER take advantage of someone's desperate need to heal in the name of making money and paying bills - and I never will!  If I have to cancel our sessions, please know, it is from the heart of hearts that I do so and in YOUR best interest, not mine!